just write sumthin'......?
It's been a long time since I've written...
or rather, it's been a long time since I've been able to write. The working world is really tough and there is little compassion afforded when you fail. Some are more blessed to work in more forgiving environments, but still, overall, we still have to 'eat of the ground through painful toil', for that is the curse which resulted from sin.
I struggle because teaching is such a tough job. I struggle because now that school has started full swing I am no longer able to do as many things as I hope for YM, being the lack of time or energy or health. I try, but I realise that I can only do so much. I struggle, and ask God why. Why am I stuck here. I want to go out into the world for you, God. Why? I don't get many answers. But one of them comes from last year's camp....'necessary place'.
Why do I still want to write? Why am I rambling on and on?
I do so because my Lord Jesus is still faithful. Even in poor health and tiredness, in times of struggle and desperation and even frustration, He is still faithful. God has blessed me tremendously and i must remember to give thanks. And He reminds me that He is still at work in my life and in YM today.
Yesterday, at the YM Comm meeting, there was some sort of a spiritual breakthrough. We departed from the usual finishing of agenda, to praying as a committee. We spoke about the need to listen to God in our ministry, and perhaps how we haven't been doing that. And we began praying. We were reminded that our leaders need to be united so that the Lord can bring about His revival in us--that was the prophecy given to us many years ago. We were reminded that we need to love God first and foremost with all our heart and with all our mind and with all our soul and with all our strength. We need to remember our first love for our Lord which we have forgotten through our endless driving in ministry. And we need to love one another.
Another point that was mentioned....the church in Acts had alot of disagreements, but the Lord still worked through them, because they were a PRAYING CHURCH. Much more is accomplished when we pray much rather than when we do much. We need to pray as a church. As YM. And even in my frustration of not being able to attend prayer meetings whether it's because of my BB in school or camps or YM Comm meetings, I praise and thank God because He has raised up a generation of prayer warriors from the youths. As I walked past Rm 310/311 yesterday, I realised that the Lord doesn't need me. He is a jealous God, and he is more jealous for His Name that I ever will be. And He will raise up His children so that His 'house will be a house of prayer for the nations'.
So, even as in due time we will embark on the book of Acts during YSG time, let us not remember only the missionary journeys, or the lives of the apostles, or the places that Paul went, but let's remember that the great work of God is done through His praying church.
He is faithful.
--jiemin =)
or rather, it's been a long time since I've been able to write. The working world is really tough and there is little compassion afforded when you fail. Some are more blessed to work in more forgiving environments, but still, overall, we still have to 'eat of the ground through painful toil', for that is the curse which resulted from sin.
I struggle because teaching is such a tough job. I struggle because now that school has started full swing I am no longer able to do as many things as I hope for YM, being the lack of time or energy or health. I try, but I realise that I can only do so much. I struggle, and ask God why. Why am I stuck here. I want to go out into the world for you, God. Why? I don't get many answers. But one of them comes from last year's camp....'necessary place'.
Why do I still want to write? Why am I rambling on and on?
I do so because my Lord Jesus is still faithful. Even in poor health and tiredness, in times of struggle and desperation and even frustration, He is still faithful. God has blessed me tremendously and i must remember to give thanks. And He reminds me that He is still at work in my life and in YM today.
Yesterday, at the YM Comm meeting, there was some sort of a spiritual breakthrough. We departed from the usual finishing of agenda, to praying as a committee. We spoke about the need to listen to God in our ministry, and perhaps how we haven't been doing that. And we began praying. We were reminded that our leaders need to be united so that the Lord can bring about His revival in us--that was the prophecy given to us many years ago. We were reminded that we need to love God first and foremost with all our heart and with all our mind and with all our soul and with all our strength. We need to remember our first love for our Lord which we have forgotten through our endless driving in ministry. And we need to love one another.
Another point that was mentioned....the church in Acts had alot of disagreements, but the Lord still worked through them, because they were a PRAYING CHURCH. Much more is accomplished when we pray much rather than when we do much. We need to pray as a church. As YM. And even in my frustration of not being able to attend prayer meetings whether it's because of my BB in school or camps or YM Comm meetings, I praise and thank God because He has raised up a generation of prayer warriors from the youths. As I walked past Rm 310/311 yesterday, I realised that the Lord doesn't need me. He is a jealous God, and he is more jealous for His Name that I ever will be. And He will raise up His children so that His 'house will be a house of prayer for the nations'.
So, even as in due time we will embark on the book of Acts during YSG time, let us not remember only the missionary journeys, or the lives of the apostles, or the places that Paul went, but let's remember that the great work of God is done through His praying church.
He is faithful.
--jiemin =)
This prayer blog is started to help us in Wesley Youth Ministry have a collective journal of God's dealings with each and every one of us. In time to come this blog will be a testimony to God's faithfulness to YM, as we look back through the months and the years and see in hindsight how the Lord has been working in and through us.
If you feel that you have anything to contribute to the blog, to give thanks to God for answered prayer, to encourage the body of Christ, or share what God has been speaking to you through prayer and QT, please email your entry to jiemin11@singnet.com.sg and include your name as you would like it to appear on the blog.
God bless you!
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